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Jan
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I am grateful for me

Files under gratitoodz | Posted by Cary Darling

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I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and doggone it , people like me. — Stuart Smalley

Today I am grateful for me. I personally don’t give myself enough credit, and often wonder what it is I bring to the table in my relationship with friends, girlfriends and family. More often than not when I am analyzing my self worth and I’m needing a mirror to reflect in, I find that mirror in the eyes of others.

When discussing this with Sanjay yesterday he brought up a very good point, he mentioned that was a fine place to start initially when for whatever reason we can’t seem to find those great qualities within ourselves that others do see.

To put it all out there, I at times suffer from a lack of confidence and have often wondered to myself why anyone would choose to associate themselves with me, and why out of millions in this city alone, that they would call me of all people to spend their time with.

What has helped me to get through those times is to take a good hard look at my friends. I have said it before and I will say it again, I have some amazing friends, and within each and everyone one of those amazing friends are qualities that I admire, and apparently there are qualities within me that they all admire. If such amazing people choose to be with me, then I must be an amazing person too.

Like Sanjay said, that’s a good start. Now its time to grow up and start finding those qualities within myself so when someone in life doesn’t choose to be with me for whatever reason, I don’t allow my self worth to be diminished.

I have been down that road before, in particular with weight loss not just once but a couple of times. There was a young lady I fell madly in love with and to prove my love I decided to lose weight, at that time I was just a measly twenty to twenty-five pounds overweight. She never asked me to lose the weight, in fact she never mentioned it. But I decided that my health wasn’t reason enough to drop some pounds, but more importantly her love was.

I started watching everything I ate and exercising, in less than six months I was within five pounds of my ideal weight and I looked great. But guess what? Within another six months she left me anyway, and needless to say because I found my self worth in her eyes, I put the weight back on and then some in even less time.

No more, I’m breaking that mirror today and it starts off with me being grateful for me and the amazing qualities I have that make me a wonderful person.


2 Responses to “I am grateful for me”

  1. By Randi on Jan 7, 2008 | Reply

    Cary, you ARE an amazing friend with many great qualities. That’s why we all gravitate to you. Let us accompany you along the path you are on.

  2. By Cary Darling on Jan 7, 2008 | Reply

    Thanks Randi for the compliments and taking time out of your “busy schedule,” to read my blog. :)

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