Health and cheerfulness naturally beget each other. ~Joseph Addison
Everyday my body gets stronger, my muscles become more elastic, my joints more fluid, and I am grateful for the healing that I have received and continue to receive.
I am amazed at the changes my body has gone through in the past year, with 100 pounds and untold inches of fat gone, I am capable of so much more now, specifically of enjoying more of life.
I was at Wal-Mart when I noticed the blood pressure machine, I hadn’t had my blood pressure taken since my last fill, so I figured I would check it out. My blood pressure was fine the last time I had it checked, but I was amazed when the numbers came back 117 over 72, and my heart rate was 85. I don’t think I have even had numbers as good as this when I was a kid.
When I go walking on the treadmill now, I’m really having to kick it up a notch in order to achieve the same results I would have received months ago at such slower speeds. It is amazing the transformation my body and health have had over the last 11 months. The lap-band has helped, but it is only a tool, and a part of myself had to step up and help to make it happen.
I am not finished by any means. I have lofty goals when it comes to my health, and every day I am pushing myself to make better overall choices. But here is the important thing. I don’t always succeed. But guess what? BIG F’in DEAL! There are no more pity parties, no more blame. I make decisions about my life. Then good or bad I accept the consequences those decisions bring, and if they don’t bring the desired results I want, well then I have to make better decisions next time. No more beating myself up over such small things in life. I did that for most of my life, and it doesn’t lead me anywhere good.
I am learning to love myself, and it has been a fun and interesting experience, and part of that process has been to learn to forgive myself, and allow myself some room to make mistakes. Mistakes aren’t a bad thing, it is only how we react in those situations that can be bad. Me, I am working on hard on just picking myself up, dusting myself off, and going at it again until I get it right.
